just gotta let it ouuuuuut.

Haha well, sigh I know no one comes here anymore and I've gotta let some things off my chest so guess this is the only outlet.

Disappointment hurts. It really does. But nothing hurts more than letting yourself down, knowing that some things are just within your capability to do well but yet, at the end, nothing seems to come through. You blank out, you are careless, or some shit is just staring at you in your face and you really dont know how to do.

Well, sigh I've let myself down countless times in my whole life, but nothing hurts more knowing that I failed myself yesterday. Yeah, I get comforted from the people I love, but well, somehow it doesn't make it easier for me to bear. It just isn't.

And yeah, I am getting over it gradually, not because I want to, but because I have to. Two weeks more of this arduous journey and I just I can't afford to crumble now.

But I'm really tired, I really am. Sigh, I'm just tired of trying so hard to be a good student, a good daughter, a good girlfriend and I dont know, maybe I'm reaching breaking point. But I don't push blame, I only blame myself for being so stupid and sigh, maybe some things just aren't meant to be.

I dont know sigh, I'm just reconsidering some things (although it's really the wrong time to do so).

Just really tired.

Help me.