Because things would always (not) work out in the end

Yknow I really really want this so freakin badly that I can nearly give up every single thing just to fight for it.

But I know that it's always the big picture that matters, not whatever shit a stupid individual like me thinks.

Oh gosh, I've never felt like this before.

All that talk about working hard and what not, well it did pay off for me for a period of time but what came after that was a nightmare - something that no one ever fuckin' expected to happen, but yes it did, and it happened to me.

And because it's that fuckin' important to me.

It's THAT important.