How do they figure it all out?
Life has been pretty fulfilling.. actually no, it hasn't been at all. Haha I'm spending most of my free time playing css or watching tv or just, figuring out what to do next. In short, everything except studying! Promo results were okay..I'd expected much worst than that so I've no complaints but I guess it's just a wakening call that I should start bucking up to avoid disappointment next year.
So people, if you see that I've too much free time, PLEASE PERSUADE ME TO START TAKING OUT MY BOOKS KAY!
People around me did pretty well (: Some smart hardworking asses who do not admit that they are smart and hardworking and their name on the dean's list just proves it all! (: Except I know that there are a couple of flukes..... YES IT IS YOU MERRILL THE GAY! Haha xD
Spent much time catching up with people I've lost touch with like SLEEPOVER AT RITZ CARLTON WITH SPONKAYYZ or RGTT'08 Farewell.. and it was pretty darn fun! At the sleepover, we just talked and talked and talked, and even those who seemed far away also decided to 'open her eyes' and join us at the bed, when in fact she wasn't asleep at all....then there were those whiney ones who kept complaining about bed space but in the end, we had a great deal of information dug out from her. THEN THERE IS A LESBIAN COUPLE!!! LOL!!
Farewell was fun too, pity we had to leave early but I'm glad that the retarded juniors that I have watched and grown up with are now passing on the flame to the next batch and everyone is just moving on to where they are supposed to be (: Am happy for you guys (: Oi, sec3 batch, make sure yall do a good job ah.
Miko's just becoming more playful! She hides below my bed and makes weird noises, or plays with her ball at the edge of the bed such that it drops off constantly and she just keeps jumping up and down. So even if it's the holidays, who cares? I am already awake by 6.30am, nearly EVERY MORNING! But I love the smelly, naughty, crazy, eratic dog anyway (:
Many things have been happening, I've discovered things that I wasn't supposed to know, be in places that I'm not supposed to be, or start thinking 'what could have been'..
Yknow, it's ironic that, I have never expected that the one person I thought would ruin this amazing feeling that I have, would be me. And then, I wondered if things could have indeed been better, if the past could have been corrected, if i could have gone back and amend the mistakes that I've done, plaster the wounds of people that I've previously hurt.. But I guess not, because things aren't always as simple as it seems. That WILL happen if that's a world where people are merely just emotionless robots but not in this world you live in yiyun, these are people with real feelings, feelings whom you've obliviously hurt along the way and it's just too late to make it up now.
I know sorry wouldn't cut it, but I still have to say it anyway.
I'm sorry.
Then there are promises that you've made but failed to carry it out throughout the way..
There was just this night that I couldn't sleep, prolly cos I was thinking about how mean a person I have been. Somehow, I just don't realise it but all it takes is for a single person to bring it up. I know I've changed ever since I stepped foot into RJC and I don't like the person that I am now. I used to be not so crude, not so vulgar, not so bitchy. But now, it's just a natural instinct for me and I know sometimes I seem to be having fun, laughing and all, then again I look at the mirror and I just don't see, me. I just see a freakin' ass in the mirror.
People change, no doubt.
So I've promised myself that I will change to become a better person, cos I know how fortunate I am to have such loved ones beside me and I will never ever ever ever do anything to hurt them again.
Pizz out dudes`
So people, if you see that I've too much free time, PLEASE PERSUADE ME TO START TAKING OUT MY BOOKS KAY!
People around me did pretty well (: Some smart hardworking asses who do not admit that they are smart and hardworking and their name on the dean's list just proves it all! (: Except I know that there are a couple of flukes..... YES IT IS YOU MERRILL THE GAY! Haha xD
Spent much time catching up with people I've lost touch with like SLEEPOVER AT RITZ CARLTON WITH SPONKAYYZ or RGTT'08 Farewell.. and it was pretty darn fun! At the sleepover, we just talked and talked and talked, and even those who seemed far away also decided to 'open her eyes' and join us at the bed, when in fact she wasn't asleep at all....then there were those whiney ones who kept complaining about bed space but in the end, we had a great deal of information dug out from her. THEN THERE IS A LESBIAN COUPLE!!! LOL!!
Farewell was fun too, pity we had to leave early but I'm glad that the retarded juniors that I have watched and grown up with are now passing on the flame to the next batch and everyone is just moving on to where they are supposed to be (: Am happy for you guys (: Oi, sec3 batch, make sure yall do a good job ah.
Miko's just becoming more playful! She hides below my bed and makes weird noises, or plays with her ball at the edge of the bed such that it drops off constantly and she just keeps jumping up and down. So even if it's the holidays, who cares? I am already awake by 6.30am, nearly EVERY MORNING! But I love the smelly, naughty, crazy, eratic dog anyway (:
Many things have been happening, I've discovered things that I wasn't supposed to know, be in places that I'm not supposed to be, or start thinking 'what could have been'..
Yknow, it's ironic that, I have never expected that the one person I thought would ruin this amazing feeling that I have, would be me. And then, I wondered if things could have indeed been better, if the past could have been corrected, if i could have gone back and amend the mistakes that I've done, plaster the wounds of people that I've previously hurt.. But I guess not, because things aren't always as simple as it seems. That WILL happen if that's a world where people are merely just emotionless robots but not in this world you live in yiyun, these are people with real feelings, feelings whom you've obliviously hurt along the way and it's just too late to make it up now.
I know sorry wouldn't cut it, but I still have to say it anyway.
I'm sorry.
Then there are promises that you've made but failed to carry it out throughout the way..
There was just this night that I couldn't sleep, prolly cos I was thinking about how mean a person I have been. Somehow, I just don't realise it but all it takes is for a single person to bring it up. I know I've changed ever since I stepped foot into RJC and I don't like the person that I am now. I used to be not so crude, not so vulgar, not so bitchy. But now, it's just a natural instinct for me and I know sometimes I seem to be having fun, laughing and all, then again I look at the mirror and I just don't see, me. I just see a freakin' ass in the mirror.
People change, no doubt.
So I've promised myself that I will change to become a better person, cos I know how fortunate I am to have such loved ones beside me and I will never ever ever ever do anything to hurt them again.
Pizz out dudes`
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