Surprises. Unexpected.

TOO many things have been happening and yeah, it has been a long long time since I've last blogged. Well, the main reason cos work has been just piling up lately and then there's pw, there's ihc to throw your plans to study off track, there's tuition, remedial classes and the list just never ends.

Well, my mum hit me with some news yesterday. And I really thought that I should have known it earlier, not yesterday, but much much earlier. Because I expected so much out of it, I thought things were going fine, but who knew, they weren't.

Losses are always unexpected yiyun, why haven't you gotten that drilled into you?!

I am sorry though, cos I should have known better.

But I REALLY REALLY hope that things will just turn out fine like perhaps after 5/6 weeks?

Although, it's always my wishful thinking.. Just hope it's the best for both of them.

Sigh, I really hate losing people in my life, especially those that I am close to.

About 6 more weeks to waggie's death anniversary, so soon. And it has been a year since she left me, it's just, too fast for this to happen. I never knew I could survived so long without her by my side.

Sometimes I just HATE myself. Nowadays, I am slammed with work and then I just forget that yknow, this integral part of me is gone. I used to make it a point to remember her cos I really really dont want the memories to fade alongside with time. But now, it's just going away and I can feel it and I dont it to be that way.