My life you're stealing

Hello friends, how's the holidays coming along? Haha regardless, I just hope that your lives haven't been as unproductive as mine. I rot at home playing cs for about 4/5 hours per day, yesyes I know my life is sad please don't repeat that.

Past week has been quite tiring and expensive! Haha considering that I've spent nearly every day out eating and playing but hey, it's good to just sit and chill out with your friends :D and of course, there's a lot of stuff we talk about :P Oh and sunday's sleepover at zeslene's was awesome, haha apart from the fact that manutd won liverpool at anfield, the mao and I stayed up to just chaaaat. haha pretty rockin' eh (:

Had family steamboat just now, and woah, suddenly feel the urge of going to msia with my cousins. My parents want me to go I know (I know they'll feel kinda lonely?) but kinda made certain commitments to the plans I have next week so.. Surprised pa with a birthday cake (: though it's kinda hard when you have 1 bochap brother, 1 brother who's too obsessed with his girlfriend, and 1 mother who's busy cleaning up. So what you have left of that would be an idiot which is me, running around the house trying to keep the surprise a surprise -.- darn annoying I tell you

Things have been fine though, and yeah pretty glad for that. (:

Miss you.

For real?

Alright, so I'm back in one piece but my heart + mind are all over the place. Thanks to those concerned about that domestic airplane crash in turkey. Mmh, received a msg about 1 hour before boarding the plane and it was a scare but all's well anyway. Sad thing though, everyone on board which was 57 of them didn't make it. There was even a 2 months old baby (not too sure about this) and when I saw the funeral on news, woah it hit me hard cos I know the feeling of losing people I loved too. A baby can you imagine that, yet to experience what the world's like and boom, just gone like that.

Sigh, I've lost people and I'm losing them now. It's kinda hard to be away when you've unfinished business over here. Had time to think things through over in turkey, considered the looooong hours on the bus.

Too many regrets this year, and many ahead. I think I had the chances to be a better person, I really really had the chances but I just blew it like that. I thought I've learnt my lesson after waggie's departure, but no. Take class chalet for example, heh stupid stupid thing. Sometimes I seriously feel like stabbing myself, maybe there would be less pain.

Friends, you're dearly missed.