For real?

Alright, so I'm back in one piece but my heart + mind are all over the place. Thanks to those concerned about that domestic airplane crash in turkey. Mmh, received a msg about 1 hour before boarding the plane and it was a scare but all's well anyway. Sad thing though, everyone on board which was 57 of them didn't make it. There was even a 2 months old baby (not too sure about this) and when I saw the funeral on news, woah it hit me hard cos I know the feeling of losing people I loved too. A baby can you imagine that, yet to experience what the world's like and boom, just gone like that.

Sigh, I've lost people and I'm losing them now. It's kinda hard to be away when you've unfinished business over here. Had time to think things through over in turkey, considered the looooong hours on the bus.

Too many regrets this year, and many ahead. I think I had the chances to be a better person, I really really had the chances but I just blew it like that. I thought I've learnt my lesson after waggie's departure, but no. Take class chalet for example, heh stupid stupid thing. Sometimes I seriously feel like stabbing myself, maybe there would be less pain.

Friends, you're dearly missed.